lonely…. I want to talk to someone. Having lived alone for more than 30 years with such an urgent desire, I falsely called a home helper to my house, pretending that I couldn't stand too much loneliness and became sick. At first, I intended to talk to him, but his crotch swelled due to the kindness and the sense of distance that was too close to him. But the caregiver smiled and made my crotch gentle.