Humiliation rather than joy .. Severe pain rather than pleasure .. A real masochist work that seeks unhappiness rather than happiness! I broke myself as an idol. That’s … because I was a masochist. Hey, do you know Masochism can’t be satisfied with ordinary SEX. More radical. More embarrassing. Desire accelerates and can’t be suppressed. That’s why I’m quitting idols and living like this now. As an M woman …